So, I’m very thankful – it’s been a very successful week, both spiritually and mundanely…well, except for this morning when I had to be up at 4:30AM to drive my husband to the airport (Army stuff). But, then again, I’m thankful for that now that I think about it because this school he is going to and the orders we will receive when he completes it has stopped him from being deployed to Afghanistan…so yes, I can say that I’m thankful for that.
Anyways, spiritually – I’ve made a very long-awaited connection with Epona. As I’ve stated in comments under my Epona entry, I’ve always loved and had a strong connection with horses. Equine Science was my first college major until I’d gotten into a car accident on my way to college one early icy morning on my way to the horse barn to groom and take care of the horse that I was responsible for, Briar. Despite having to be up at 5AM every morning to get to the horse barn, it was well worth it to me as I loved EVERYTHING about it. I loved the smells, the sounds of the horses whinnying and snorting, and most especially grooming her. That was when I was at peace in my “happy place” – spending that one on one time with her rubbing, brushing and picking hooves. I also loved riding – the freedom from all my cares that came with it was amazing…
In my younger days, when confronted, being “cut down” or if someone tried to discourage me from doing something I had set my mind to, I remember “feeling” like a wild horse saying, “I will not be broken!” Stubborn…very stubborn (if truth be told, I still am). I’ve felt a faint connection with Epona for several years now; with Her name popping into my head for no apparent reason and calling out to Her when feeling weak, hurt and vulnerable. For the past few weeks, I’ve been feeling Her energy grow stronger and stronger as She made Her way into my life and really made Her presence known. Perhaps that began when during our last Druid study group several weeks ago, I pulled the Horse card from the Druid Animal Oracle deck after focusing on the question, “What do I need to focus on today?” I’ve also felt a spark with Rigantona and Rhiannon, even Macha; but more so with Epona. Maybe because Her energy just feels so much “older” and primal to me than Rhiannon, Rigantona and Macha.
It’s been extremely healing, opening up a whole new sense of deeper love, understanding, forgiveness and acceptance that I was afraid that I’d never come to know. I had a friend a long time ago that said, “Pony medicine is good medicine – healing medicine,” and as far as I’m concerned, he was right on the money! I’m not sure what finally sealed the deal completed this connection – perhaps when it was when I was riding one of the horses with my daughter at the Renaissance Festival last Sunday – I have no idea. All I know is that She’s here and I’m so thankful for Her warm, loving and peaceful presence I feel when my anger or feelings of discontent and frustration flare up. I can “see” Her: a milk-white mare with big soft brown eyes just staring at me and feel Her comforting warmth.
I’ve also decided to try to work with Her as a Gatekeeper, which I understand is usually a male deity. However, I feel She would make a perfect Gatekeeper as She is associated with protection, keys, the Otherworld and Underworld, being a psychopomp, travel, shape-shifting, dreams, the Feminine and magic – just to name a few of Her associations. As I have more of a Dianic nature, it just feels right.
I’ve thought a lot about the Goddesses that I feel connected to and noticed a pattern. First off, Brighid – Celtic, who goes by many names depending on the region or tribe you’re looking at (i.e. Brìde in Scotland, Brigindū in Gaul, Brigantia in Great Britain, etc.). Nemetona – Celtic, worshiped in eastern Gaul. Sulis – Celtic, another Gaulish Goddess worshiped at the thermal spring of Bath (with associations with Brighid). And now Epona – another Gaulish Goddess worshiped throughout the Celtic and even Roman world. I also have an interest in Artio a Celtic/Gaulish bear Goddess, worshiped notably at Bern (Switzerland) and Abnoba, another Gaulish Goddess who was worshipped in the Black Forest and surrounding areas with connections to Diana (another favorite Goddess of mine). Do you see a pattern? They’re all Celtic Goddesses, yes, but more specifically, they’re all Gaulish.
I think I’ve found my pantheon 🙂
This kind of surprised me as I had expected it to be more of an Irish pantheon, but the feeling of connectedness just isn’t as strong as it is with the Gaulish pantheon. Perhaps because of my Ancestors? I will freely admit that yes, I am a mutt – Sicilian, Polish and Czechoslovakian on my father’s side and Irish, German, Polish, English, French and Dutch on my mother’s side. Now, I know that there are people who say that ancestry doesn’t have too much of an influence on what deities call to you, and I agree with that; however, I feel that sometimes, it does.
Onto a different topic now…
I’ve just now discovered a very yummy and acceptable offering to the Shining Ones – Jack Daniels Tennessee Honey. It caught my eye one day as I was walking through the PX looking for a bottle of whiskey to use for my offerings, especially after our very successful garage sale we’ve been running all this past week. I felt a collective acceptance from the Shining Ones as we gave offerings of thanks for our blessings we had received.
That then inspired my husband…mead making. Eventually, when he retires from the military, we would really like to live a self-sustainable life. My aunt and uncle are beekeepers and sell their own honey. I one day want to learn this skill and sell honey and make soaps and skincare products. My husband sees an opportunity to make and sell mead as well. Perhaps some Divine Inspiration? 🙂 Who knows…we’ll see where this dream takes us…